“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

well.. i've never written a blog before, but i guess its time to start.  i dont really know how to begin.  i used to keep a journal, like junior year of high school, but that was because i had to for my english class.  BUT so much has happened in my life recently; some for the better and some i dont really want to accept, but i will learn to have to.  i guess its all just a part of growing up and going to college.  i have learned so much this past year of my life.  ive learned who my true friends are and will always be there for me, the ones i can count on, and those that are just there for my enjoyment.

my friends mean the world to me.  i dont know where i would be today without them.  going off to college has really taught me who will always be there.  it doesnt mean that we talk everyday, but just every once in a while to make sure the other one is alive and catch up on their lives.  every time i come home, i cant wait to see them and tell them all that has happened since i last talked to them and catch up on all the drama that has been going on at home since i have been away. last semester i didnt get to see them as often as i wanted to so that made our time together even more special.  it always brings a smile to my face to be able to see them and fellowship with them whether it be hanging out, watching movies, having bonfires, going to church, riding around in trucks, being complete idiots, hanging out by the lake, playing rock band, staying up all night long beside a bonfire, crying over stupid boys, mattress surfing/christmas tree surfing, or just plain out watching tv together.  about 2 weeks ago, i sent out a text inviting people to come stay with me in milly; just to hang out and spend time together, since we didnt see eachother as much as planned last semester.  it ended up being just lindsey, hannah, tyler, slade, david, and drew.  these 6 people are the ones i can trust my life with.  i can go to anyone of these people and know that i can trust them with whatever.  we have all been through thick and thin together; fights, hatred, being best friends, love, "things", sneaking out, but most of all we have been there for each other no matter what :)  i can honestly say through everything that not once did we not care about each other.  i also have some other great friends too, that i can trust with anything.  there is ashton, katie, kyle, hannah, chandler, jessica, heather, cody, and joel. (i know youre thinking, joel? but i can go to him and trust him, not like some of you may believe)

my best friend, my partner in crime, my soulmate, my sunshine, my twin, my other half, my bfffffffffffffff.

so let me tell you about my best friend, you know, melissa joanna kingsley.  she is my best friend. i love her so much.  we have been best friends for like 16 years. i know, "its not about who has known you the longest; its who came and never left your side."  i can honestly say that she has been here the longest and has never left my side.  she knows more about me than anybody in this world.  i trust her with everything and know that shes not gonna go blab it to everybody she sees.  she is my twin, my other half, my sunshine when i am down, she picks me up when i fall, my partner in crime, my soulmate, and an amazing woman of God.  she always knows what to say when i need a pick-me-up, and be the first one to know that i need one.  sometimes i think she knows me better than i know myself.  we have been through a lot together.  i would have wanted nothing more than to go to college with my best friend.  i honestly dont know where i would be right now if i didnt have her by my side.  when anything and everything goes wrong in my apartment (and things do go wrong..trust me), i know i can just run to her and we can go eat ice cream and just vent to the world about all our problems; its a very good stress reliever.  i think everybody should have a friend like melissa. i love youuuuu bfffff!

so.. i used to say that i missed the past and i wanted it back, but now i look at the present and everything that i wanted is already here.  everybody is right where they should be.  i never thought that things were ever going to be the same and i wasnt going to like that, but in reality. things werent going to be the same; it wasnt possible. if i think about it, i dont want things to go back to the way they were because we have all grown from our experiences.  we wouldnt be the way we are today, if things in the past hadnt of happened.  just a random thought i had that i just wanted to throw out there.

"never have regrets, because at one point everything you did, was exactly what you wanted."

well... i guess i should go study and do things productive in my life and make good grades.

love always,
Anna <3